hey everyone.

wow i havent wrote on this in forever.

well here's the update.

my life has been pretty much morally depressed.i mean as we get older,we get our heart broken.you take chances and they back fire on you.you become friends with ppl who backstab you.you meet people who mean so much,but they never realize it.this year was so hard.so many tears,so many scars.im not complaining.i kno my mistakes.but i mean is life really worth living anymore?..i mean whats so great about it.it's like a living hell.i mean..i just wish sometimes i wasnt here anymore.b/c all it is pain and hurt.getting your heart broken over some asshole. but there is some people out there that i care about more than anything in the world.and if u kno who that is i wanna thank you for being there any time that i needed someone.i love all of ya'll so much.ya'll have helped e hold my head up when there was no one else.and i thank you for that.my good friends.i just idk.i mean would anyone really care if i was here anymore?..or am i just worthless?..i dont kno..i just wish i wasnt really here anymore...

i love all of you.and ya'll have been there for me.

-mel

Hey peoples.

Srry i have't been updating got alot of stuff going on.

Well the school years over.And high school here i come.

The last day of school was so hard.Everyone's tears dropped.

And me havin to say good-bye to everyone who means so much to me.

I'm going to miss everyone so much.I'm going to miss my best friend the most.

They were always there for me.Not getting my hugs each day.lol.

Moving on into High School leaving some of my peeps behind.

The 7th graders who are moving up to 8th graders.Going to miss them bunches.

And on the same day.I went to Tylor's memorial.I cried so much.I still cant believe he's gone.

And now having more troubles.Guys,friends,everything.So you can pretty much say the summer isnt going as planned.

well im gonna go ttyl

I Love Ya'll!

Mel

(Here's the poem i wrote)

In memory of Tylor.

i cant believe your gone
it's been so long
you could make me smile
my me laugh
and now we just need you back
you were awesome,you were great
and i wish that wasnt you fate
you held you head so high
and i never want to say good bye
you still remain in my heart
and i'll never let you part
now you get your wings to fly
but you always had them
that;s why u could make everyone smile

hey ppl...srry for not updating..well saturday was the 8th  grade farewell dress...and i got to wear my dress with polka dots...*yah*...but yeh we have like 6 and 1/2 days of skool left...and it's going 2 be sad...i can already see it im going 2 cry at the clap out...but back to my story..the dance was ok...but they play way to much freakin country...the only good song they played was "Dance Dance"By: fall out boy..but yeh well anyways..this week has been messed up...it' just like yeh...well im gonna go

<3

Mel

Hey peoplez...my life...has gotten silently better i guess...it's still like blah...since the being of the year when all this shit went down.....and have breakdowns...tears...scars...pain that still hurts.....and a piece of ur heart broken from an asshole who doesnt care......guys think girls are some piece of property...they think there allowed 2 throw them around....play them...hurt them...make them think there the only think that matters...and then ur so called friends...laugh,talk about you behind your back....and then in time you forgive them....but it still hurts...but yeh...this year had way 2 much drama...and in high school i bet there will even be more

<3

Mel

Currently Listening From Under the Cork Tree By Fall Out Boy A little less sixteen candles,A little more "Touch Me" see related

Hey People

Today was the reading T.A.K.S...so effin easy...lol

But yeh i have started 2 realize im starting 2 like someone

That i liked along time ago

And it's like...yeh b/c that person like freakin hates me

But yeh

Still.....

I dont kno

Well today was fun...

like me and sarah like drew all over each others arms

lol

Sarah

<3's

Derek

lol...cute cute

there so going 2 go out...

yeh today freaking matt tried to cut my hair

b/c i asked him if i could cut his

and i said he could cut mine

but just a small piece

but he didnt want 2 cut a small piece

lol...matty watty is a bad boy

lol...but yeh tonights youth

you freakin pplz better come

lol..

ttyl

<3

Mel

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